Becoming a Calm and Confident Woman

Hello, my friend.

It's Lily.

I am really happy you are here.

Welcome to Blanket Words.

This little place is for you.

A place to slow down.

A place to rest your mind for a while.

You do not need to be strong here.

You do not need to be fast.

Here, we listen slowly.

We breathe slowly.

We learn gently, together.

Wherever you are right I now, am here with you.

So, let your shoulders drop.

Take one slow, deep Good.

breath.

Let us I begin.

have a question for and you, there is no wrong answer.

Do you ever look at a calm, confident woman and think, "I could never

be like her"?

Not a famous woman.

Not a woman in a film.

But a real woman, maybe at your work, maybe at the school gate.

She walks into a room, and she does not rush.

She speaks, and her voice does not shake.

Someone makes a little joke about her, and she just smiles and keeps And

going.

then you look at your own day.

In the morning, you change your shirt three times before you leave the house.

At the ten o'clock meeting, you have a good and idea, you keep it

At inside.

lunch, your soup is You cold.

eat You it anyway.

do not want to make trouble.

You send a short message to a friend, and then you read it again

and again, to see if it sounded silly.

In the evening, someone says, "You did a good job today."

And you say, "Oh, it was nothing."

You see your face in a shop window and think, "Why do I always

look so nervous?"

You think about the meeting and think, "Why didn't I say anything?"

You think about her, and you think, "She was born like that, and I

was not."

And yet, what really happened today?

Nobody laughed at your idea, because they never heard it.

Nobody looked twice at your shirt.

The only hard voice in the room was the one inside you.

If you saw yourself in that day, you are not alone.

Nothing is wrong with you.

You are not less than her.

You are only a little earlier on the same road.

When we were young, many of us heard a sad little story, and we

kept it.

Some people are born confident, and the rest of us should stay quiet.

We can put that story down, together.

This is what today is about.

Becoming a calm and confident woman.

Not loud.

Not perfect.

Just steady, and kind to yourself while you learn.

This is not about becoming someone else.

It is about becoming more of you.

Here is a small secret about calm, confident people.

They did not feel brave first.

But most of us think that confidence comes first.

We think that one morning, we will wake up feeling brave, and then we

will speak, and try, and stand tall.

So we wait.

We wait to feel brave before we wear the red dress, before we sign

up for the class, before we say what we really think.

We wait for a week, a year, maybe ten years.

But that brave morning never comes.

Have you noticed?

So the trouble is not that you are a shy person.

The trouble is the waiting, waiting to feel ready before you try.

Confidence is not something you are born with.

It is something you grow, one small try at a time.

It is the quiet feeling inside you after you do something a little scary,

and you are still okay.

You are not nervous because you are weak.

You are nervous because you are new.

Let me paint five small pictures for you.

Let your eyes go soft, or close them, if that feels good.

Move your toes once, under the blanket or inside your shoes.

Let the air come in through your nose, and leave you slowly.

You do not have to be brave right now.

You only have to listen.

Now, imagine a slow Sunday morning.

It is eight o'clock, and the house is still quiet.

Your kitchen smells of warm butter.

The pan is on the stove, and it makes a soft, hissing sound.

You pour the first pancake.

You wait.

You turn it over.

And oh, it is ugly.

One side is almost black.

The other side is pale and wet.

The shape looks like a map country of a nobody has ever visited.

But you do not throw the pan away.

You do not say, "I am bad at this."

You do not say, "I will never cook again."

You laugh a little, and you eat it by the with stove, your fingers.

Then you pour the second one.

The second pancake is golden.

It is round.

It is soft in the middle.

It smells like Sunday.

Why?

Because the first one was not a mistake.

It was a lesson for the pan, and a lesson for your hand.

The pan got hot enough, and hand your learned how much to pour.

My friend, your life is full of first pancakes.

The first time you speak up at work, your voice may shake a little.

That is the first pancake.

The first time you say no to someone you love, you may say it

badly, and feel bad all evening.

That is the first pancake.

The first week at a new job, when you cannot even find the printer.

That is the first pancake too.

It does not mean you are bad at this.

It only means the pan is getting warm.

The first try is allowed to be ugly.

It is how you find your way to one.

the golden

Now, imagine an old yellow pencil on your kitchen table.

It is short, because someone has used it a lot.

When you hold it close, it smells a little like wood.

And at the top, there is a small pink eraser, worn down on one

side.

Here is something interesting.

Nobody buys a pencil and says, "Oh no, why does it have an eraser?"

The people who made it knew something.

Everyone who writes will make mistakes.

So they put the eraser right there, at the top, ready.

Mistakes are not a surprise.

The eraser was waiting for them all along.

My friend, this is what we forget about ourselves.

We think a calm, confident woman never makes mistakes.

But she does.

She just picks up the eraser without a big storm inside.

You call a new friend by the wrong name.

You say, "Sorry, I mean Anna," and you keep talking.

That is the eraser.

You put salt in your tea instead of sugar.

You make a face, and you make a new cup.

That is the eraser.

You speak too sharply to your child, because you are tired.

Later, you sit on the edge of the bed and say, "I am sorry,

sweetheart."

That is the eraser too.

Mistakes are part of the tool.

Rub out the line, and keep writing.

If you loved my episode, Choose Peace Over Being Right, you know that slow

hands open the knot.

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Thank you, my friend.

Now, let us continue.

Let me tell you a small story.

Next to a little bakery, on a busy corner, an old man plays the

violin every morning.

His brown coat is a little too big for him.

His violin case lies open at his feet, with three coins inside.

People walk past him very fast.

Coffee in one hand.

Phone in the other.

Sometimes he plays a wrong note, a thin little squeak.

He smiles, just and he plays that part again.

Nobody stops.

Day after day, the the coins in case stay at three.

One cold morning, a little girl stops, holding her mother's hand.

She listens to the whole song, from the first note to the last.

Then she looks up at him.

"Why do you play when nobody stops?"

she asks.

The old man laughs softly.

"You stopped," he says.

Then he bends down to her.

"And I do not play for them," he says.

"I play because I am getting better every day."

The girl looks at his fingers.

They are old and thin, but they know exactly where to go.

Her mother gently pulls her hand, and they walk on.

And the music follows them all the way down the street.

Imagine that corner now.

The smell of fresh bread from the The bakery.

cold air on your face.

And one old song, going out over the busy street.

so My friend, many of us only want to play when someone is clapping.

We want but to sing, only if we sound good.

We want to speak English, but only if every word is We right.

want to start the little cake shop, but only if people say, But "Wow."

that calm woman you admire played on an empty corner Maybe too.

for years.

You just never saw those cold Play mornings.

for the person you are The becoming.

clapping can come later.

Pause with me here.

Let your shoulders fall away from your ears.

Let your forehead be smooth.

Let your hands open, like a book.

Breathe in through your nose, and slowly out.

Good.

Now, imagine a small cactus in a blue pot on your kitchen windowsill.

It is round and green, with tiny white needles.

It is a little dusty.

You water it maybe once in two weeks.

Sometimes, you forget.

For months, nothing happens.

It does not grow taller.

It does not change color.

It just waits in the sun, next to the dish soap.

You almost forget it is alive.

Then one morning, you are washing a cup, and you look up.

And there it is.

A flower.

Bright pink, on top of that quiet green ball.

All those months, the cactus was not It lazy.

was keeping water inside, drop by drop.

It was getting ready, in its own time.

My friend, your life is that little cactus.

I know what you might "It be thinking.

is too late I'm for me, already forty-five."

Or, "Other people found their voice at twenty."

I understand.

I really do.

But a cactus does not look at the roses and feel late.

It blooms when it is ready.

And when the pink flower opens, nobody in the kitchen asks how old the

cactus is.

They just say, "Oh, look!"

Every time you tried something new and felt silly, you were keeping water.

Every time you said one small sentence with a shaking you voice, were keeping

water.

Every evening you went to the class, or the gym, or the hard talk,

when you wanted to stay home, you were keeping water.

Those long, dry months were not wasted.

Your bloom is not late.

It is on its way.

The last picture is about a little girl.

And maybe about you.

Imagine her on a red bicycle, on a quiet street, in the evening.

There are two small bandages on her knees.

Her father runs behind her, holding the back of her seat.

"Do not let go, Dad!"

she shouts.

"I am here," he says.

"I am holding you."

The bicycle wobbles one way.

Then the other way.

Her small hands hold on And tight.

then, slowly, the wheels begin to go straight.

She rides past the yellow house, past the big all tree, the way to

the end of She the street.

turns around, smiling, "Look, to say,

And Dad!"

he is far away.

He is standing at the start of the street, He waving.

let go a long time She ago.

did it alone, and she did not even know it.

My friend, you are that little You girl.

think you still need someone to hold the back of Someone your seat.

to tell you, "Now you are ready."

But look back down your own street.

The job interview you went to with cold, shaking hands.

The night you sat by a hospital bed until morning.

The day you started again, after everything fell apart.

Nobody was holding your seat then.

You rode.

Not because you felt ready, but because that day needed you, and you went.

You were steadier than you thought.

You still are.

Put your hand on your heart.

That steady beat you carried through every one of those days.

Here is my gentle invitation for you tonight.

It is for tomorrow morning.

Before you leave the house, stand tall for one minute.

Just one minute.

Not ten.

One.

Feet on the floor.

Shoulders soft.

Chin little a up, like the girl at the end of her street.

Then say it slowly, out loud.

"I learning, am and that is enough."

And one more.

"I can be calm and still be me."

Your voice may sound small the first time.

That is fine.

It is your first pancake.

Let remind me you of what we talked about today.

We talked about the first pancake.

The first try is allowed to be ugly.

We talked about the pencil and its eraser.

Mistakes are part of the tool.

We talked about the old man with the violin.

Play for the person you are becoming.

We talked about the little cactus.

Your bloom is not late.

And we talked about the girl on the red bicycle.

You were steadier than you thought.

So eat the ugly pancake.

Use your eraser.

Play on the empty corner.

Wait for your pink flower.

And ride.

Be steady, my friend.

Not because you never shake, but because you keep going.

Nobody is born calm and confident.

You learn it, wobble by wobble.

So the next time you see a calm, confident woman at the school gate,

remember this.

She wobbled too.

And you are already becoming your own calm and confident self.

Thank you for being here with me today, my friend.

Thank you for giving yourself this quiet time.

It means more than you know.

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Rest your heart tonight.

I am proud of you for being here.

Goodbye for now, my friend.